|---| a fool's self-imposed sojourn in search of answers, but stumbled to more questions
|+++| perhaps there is only ONE answer to all the questions, and that is with the Almighty, All-Merciful, All-Just and All-Knowing |xxx|
and me just a mere fool
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
the waiting is over!
woohoo! fresh the oven!!! hear ye go....the processed rayaa photo films shot.
not bad, not bad.
well, me still learning to in this film setup. at time, some of the shot didnt turn out as wat me wanted. kinda hard to manually focus with the lens and you got only limited amount of pics to take.
out-of-focus pic
in-focus pic
with film, you kinda treasure all those pic that kinda *work*.
so, me got with me some shooting experience for the next big shoot-out with film, this coming saturday! the lesson learnt from this experimental shootout will definately put to good use!
currently waiting for my rayaa film pics to be processed. supposed to be done by tomorrow.
excited cuz me finished 3 rolls of films with the new 50mm lens during past 2 days!
for the time being, idling. next best job will be this saturday, a definately good photoshoot. looking forward to it mentally and physically!
been told that there will be other photographer as well, so basically, me just use me film camera(s) instead. thinking of using some exotic setup, camera + films, for something thats definately worth my time!
an another note, my credit management is pretty good for the time being. though im without a flash unit, sort of sold my old one but yet to receive any payment for it still (!@!!@!). well at times, u gotta be creative wif watever u have on ye hands, and me pretty sure me can be creative eventhough "handicapped". me not considering on any new flash unit, or pro-level zooms.
the obvious will say, i saw a tree behind a strong sun, shining so strong that tree that turns black. so strong that the the grass's green was made to stand out.
thats the obvious, what would the photographer who took this picture say?
i said, im lucky enough to be sheltered by this big tree from the heat and shining sun ray. yet been able to see my surrounding with full clarity.
nothing substantial to write. hmmm..just sharin some of me pics then?
some film adventure from the past weeks. whilst no going back to kajangg, was busy taking pictures with films. just checking out what can these films do, and me is astonished.
there was this one fav show of mine when i was a kid. thundercat.
got these overgrown kitties trying to battle scary mummy and hunched mutants. the leader of the thundercats, has with him this one wicked dagger than can turn into a sword, the "sword of omen"
amongst the many power of the sword, is granting the wielder distance-less, and un-obstructed view, when he chanted, grant me "sight-beyond-sight"
two things that seems to be a strange bedfellow; maths and leadership. the former is quantitative whilst the latter is a qualitative.
now, eventhough miles apart, they do have one thing in common: that is RESULT!
was watching a good documentary about how islamic science contributed to the world, and of how science and mathematics proven to be foundation of a great civilization.
what inspires me are the people behind these scientific and mathematical breakthrough.
of how having a "vision", somewhat like having a goalpost. when the "vision" for a solution/theory emerges in one's mind, the next course of action is to gather physical empirical facts (from external receptions) utilizing scientific methodology to approve the theorem (internal vision).
aside from the documentary, me minds wanders off....
same goes to leadership..leadership creates/states the direction where the organization is heading (inner vision) then mobilize it by the organization effort (external forces) utilizing communicational/control means.
and again, what seems to be the common bridge to achieve the result in mathematic and leadership?
willpower
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episode 4: of human temperament
on a side note, im into this so called "Keirsey Temperament Sorter", which is related to Myer-Briggs personaliy type.
now, there are 4 major layers of distinguishing people temperament, the 1st layers is how to distinguish "introspective" and "observant"
observant is self explanatory..you look at the world, and you observe all the reception. receptor from all external inputs
where else, the introspective, more towards intangible, immaterial. like ideas, concepts, theories, etc
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epilogue
how does all of the above relates to the *blind* + *fool* ?
to be grateful for what is being gifted: awareness on innervision
and to be grateful for better self understanding/capability.
it was meant for everybody: the class struggle rages on!
currently experiencing abit frustration, woke up early to take me country 52th birthday celebration. prepped up me film cameras and the drove 20 minutes to hall where the state level celebration was to be held.
me pictured on me mind, marching, musics, flags and kids. yes kids! kids make any scene or event memorable.
but things dont always happen as u planned. as me entered the seating place asking for where the public seat, the guard shrug me off, saying its not meant for the public to seat!!!
some sort of a celebration! and there we not many kids!!!!
i went off, its not worth for me to capture it on film.
then, took me sunday pics that was processed. result, is good!
there is one comic persona that me remember: daredevil.
nick-named, "the man without fear", the tragic incident that happen to Matt Murdock that caused him to lose his sight. a tragedy bereft him the ability to see. yet, his other senses are highly aggravated.
now, "the man without fear", how does one becomes fearless? just because he doesnt have vision, sight?
or is it having too many things to see can become overwhelming, nauseous to comprehend?
truly, the mind is juggling with all the "media" receptors and yet deciphering its meaning and coordinating the body to react.
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on a different note, me visited a local eye clinic. was recommended to visit the specialist cuz the normal eye clinic and spectacle shop cannot detect my right eye power. need to visit for the presription power.
now, the doc is studying my eyes for any signs for progressive deteriotion. gotta come back to the specialist in next 6 months time.
hoping that this isnt the case.
whilst at the clinic, which situated inside an university campus, took me film camera and shoot shoot shoot. guess...to show the world wat a legally blind one eyed person see in his journey for "corrective" vision
arabesque motive at the clinic
having double vision at the waiting area!
the zeiss eye reader
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last saturday, took the opportunity to have iftar in downtown. always wanted to go to this place. its a food bazaar which is like other but with a twist. people in this part of the world celebrated iftar rite infront of the mosque, on the municipal football field, with family and friends. what a sight!
so, again brought me film camera along and black n white film
